A Softer Heroin

Cheer The Fuk Up. *growl* Nono. I'm just kidding. Well I want you all to get happy, but I wont order you to like that.

Hikitsune, You are a Fuking Whore and I'm going to enjoy being a pety little Bitch in order to defen someone I love.
Spaz, Tighten your Shit up, and Fly Right. clear this Mess up with Rogue Now. I dont like seein my Family hurting
Echoes, We Love you. Only time can heal your wounds, and damnit I wish I could speed time up.
Brit, get the Fuk out of that relationship NOW

*flops down with a growl*

*growlsnarls*

We just got off the phone with our girl Brit. Turns out she's in a very controlling relationship. The asshole wont let her do the following:
Talk to Us
Shave Her Legs
Pluck her Eyebrows
Wear Make-up

He sold her Car, bought her a Lexus, and the fuker is broken. It'll cost maybe 200$ for him to fix it, and he wont [we all know why of course]

She's still in school [thank god-please grad. Highschool Brit]But this fuker has a baby, and she gets to be "mom" when he has the kid on the weekend. She isnt ready to be a mom. She's not ready to be in the situation she is in, and she's scared.
She has no real transportation, so if she moves home, she wont be able to keep a job- but if she stays with him, He takes her everywhere she needs to go.

Keeps makin coments about men, wanting them to give him a BJ and such..

The Fuker Raped her, Like Ryan Raped us [in her sleep] and gave her an STD.

I wanna kill this motha fuka. You dont fuk with my friends dog. I dont play that game.
If I knew where he lived, I'd go over there and Fuk him up right now. I dont give a shit. I'm so fired up right now I could proally kill him, Which is scarin the shit out of Chayse and Whisper. And put Shaards on edge...

*growls*

God Damn I'm pissed now. I have no Smokes, We have No Rok, we might have some Weed in the car, but Damnit....*roargrowls*

Someone hold me back, because if I see this fuker, I'm going for his throat..

In Sports:

Miami Heat Won the NBA Finals [YAY!] We cant stand Dallas. Not sure why, but we cant. We like dirk, but hate everyone else. Really wanted to see the suns play [LOVE Nash] but its all good.
I'd have hated to see Miami Beat the Suns or the suns beat miami. [those are my teams]

In school:

We start our Summer Semester on Monday... whoopie [sarcasm]


In Work:

Still currently un-employed but we had an interview today for something that would be totally kick ass. [cant say more about it till later. *crosses fingers*]

I'm hyper and tired all at the same time, and im going to harass CJ then go over to R's now that we dug up change for gas. heheh

*snikers and runs off*

Bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Went out of town on Friday. [late] we wanted to leave bout 8:00ish in the morn, but r and us didnt get out of bed till like 5:00 pm [he was sik and we had a migraine]
Got to his mums round 9:00 or so, ate some nibbles and promptly passed out.
Mum got R up at 1 ish Saturday to get some stuff done. They let me sleep. [yay] Had another migraine, didnt wake up till they got back, which was around 4:00 or so. got some liquor and ate dinner. Watched Carolina Kick Dukes Ass.
Went to bed. Woke up round 9:00 ish this mornin and headed home. [cause R had to work and I had to get paperwork done for my new job]
Decided that since I was low on lexapro, I should have a long hard cry [well I'm sure it was actually Shaards doin the crying, but I'm doin the up[dating, so- ha]
with Swoll eyes we went to take care of the work stuff.
*sigh*

Got showered, ate some dinner, and goin out to study.
Yay.


P.S. North Carolina Kicked DUKES ASS on Senior Night, at Home!!!!! GO TAR HEELS!!!

Name 5 of life's simple pleasures that you like the most. Try to be creative and original and not to use things that someone else has already used. Tag 5 people on your list.

1. Falling asleep and waking up Next to R
2. Really good Black Tar freshly Packed in my glass
3. Warm Towels on a Chilly night after a shower
4. Curling up next to Sweet Baby Jane
5. Givenchy Pi


And I'm Taggin:

rainbowfroggy
rogue1717
angeloflove
quabazaa
badseed0922

Just wanted to remind her, that time is drawing to an end....

( I hate Being Ripped Off )

* Still no word from Mally about the bullshitt. Been gatherin up everything so we have it all on hand when we have to take legal action *grumble*

* Shaards is in seclusion. She keeps comming out when we are alone/showerin and her thoughts are all fuked up and they make *Shaado and the rest of us tired and annoyed.

* Nitro and Chayse have been playin the PS2 Narnia game. [they both LOVE it]

* Psyche is keepin a close eye on Mary Jane because she hasnt eaten in a few days [yeah we know about shedding, but she hasnt regained her appetite... she's letting the worms just die :[ ]

* Learned "Jingle Bells" on the the recorder we got for Xmas

* Things are gettin a lil better I suppose. Just really exhausting....

* hehe. a bunch of us got new icons. *Shaado had a field day and we got to pic the ones we wanted. I chose more, but we are havin a problem uploading them :[

Guess I'm done talkin

She has plenty of time to come onto LJ and change her bio, Change her usericons, but she cant respond to enyones email? What a bunch of Shitt...

So this is what we had to say to her..

( and by her, I mean Maly Two Tails )

My LJ Friends go to Prison - What are their CRIMES? by kattgrrl
Username
Indecent Exposure	dreams_unslept
Contributing to the delinquency of a minor	rogue1717
Drunk & Disorderly	rainbowfroggy
Premeditated Murder	angeloflove
Kidnapping	flyawayjenny
Transporting a minor across state lines	badseed0922
Smuggling cats across state lines	amusedinsanity
Resisting arrest	c0cain3rayv3n
Stealing from the penny tray at 7-11	quabazaa
Disturbing the peace	drewberry4
Perjury	exstuhcee
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Sos We were ridding down town to pick Hottie up from work [He was bar tender for the FSU/JU Basketball game] and around the ghetto mall area [before you gets down-town] all the sudden people in fronts of us start slammin on their breaks. This one red firebird has to pull out in the median, and then I see a shitt ton of people pulling over out of the road. Not sure what the fuk is goin on, I pull over, behind the firebird in the median, thinkin maybe rescue vehicles need to get by, or something. Takes me like .2 seconds to realize that um, no. Rescue SHOULD be on their way. Right across from my line of sight, is a young woman [I believe] Face down on the asphalt, her body lying in a very awkward posistion. about 40 feet in front of her is a fuked up bicycle. The guy in the firebird gets out. It's a Cop, or at least someone in uniform and he's getting off the cell [just called rescue I'd imagine]
I never saw who hit her, I never saw what happened, but I saw her body lying there.
I dont believe she survived. I havent been able to find anything in the paper about it so far.....

EDIT:
Isnt there a "sneaky" way to use a modified mood theme even if you dont have a paid account?
Kyeron really wants to use those lions we re-coloured that the Walkers did...

I know part of the convo isnt here,... but. Just... *growl*

+DikFuk: U deserve the present i want 2 give u...its rightfully ur's
CorvidKindred: yeah.. Earned is a completely different thing tho.
+DikFuk: Ok well u did an i wouldn't deprive u of that
CorvidKindred: thanks.
+DikFuk: U'll have 2 wait cause it wont come in til round ur b-day
CorvidKindred: thats fine
+DikFuk: This means i cant give it 2 u if somethin happens 2 me
CorvidKindred: Oh geezus Christ. There is a Time frame I have to talk to people, get their opinion and report you. Thanks for tryin the blakmail routine
+DikFuk: Whats that mean?

I'm going to make a LJ cut, for those of you who arent interested in hearing about this shitt. I just need to fukin vent

Sorry all

People are hurting.
In our system and out.

I dont know what to do, im not good at comforting, and now im the only one out...

The echoes are mourning...

Earlier, David brought up a good point that the lost baby could have been his.. [yeah. we fuked like 2 weeks before ryan adn i got together, and that would make sence..actually...]

Ryan is "Begging" for a second chance..When we told him we were thinking about reporting him.. this is what he had to say to us:

1) U really hate me dont you?
2) not that i blame you since im a horrible person and im dreadfulyl sorry
3) I dont want to end up in prison for the rest of my life
4)Is there anyway i can make it up to you? i made a mistake. I'm not one of those people. I'm not a criminal

then shadows IM's me [my phone anyways] and wants to know if Ryan being a slave wouldmake me feel better, where i could beat him within an inch of his life ifi wanted to.

No. THat wont make me feel better that wont make *shaado feel better or anything. Their entire system can fuk off. It may have been Ryan that did it, but I hate all of them. [well maybe not sam] but Angel and Crow, and Nik can Rot in his cage for beating Liana so much, and Alex for letting them drink and Ryan for the Rape..and just everything.

*growls*

They think that a few favors will make me forget it, will make *Shaado forget it.
There is more emotional harm then physical.

This has never happened to us before, i mean with jake,it was close. he wanted sex, adn we just wanted him to get it over with...but this..this is different. This is the real thing..

How the fuk am i suposed ot handle that? How are any of us suposed to handle it?

EDIT:

This was suposed to be a post, venting about everything. Instead I'm venting about it and Him. *growls* Sorry. Its really starting to sink in, and the fact..we dont know whether to report him or not....

I had the whacky-est dream.

I dreamed we got into a fight with David's Mom-

okay so i know we actually did, but I dreamed we called her up, or maybe she answered the phone or something when we called dave, but we started talking to her, and was asking her like what her problem was and shitt.
*shakes head*
How wacky is that?

Cleaned up the house a little bit between classes.

*Shaado's dad isnt feeling good so we are trying to keep things quiet, and of course the dogs keep barking.

ARGH!
how frustrating.

Oh well. I'm hungry, and I need to eat since Dave isnt taken us to lunch :[

Just Because I am such a Feminist, I wanted to Post these Lyrics. I hope every Female on my Friends List, adn even Every MALE will take a moment and Read them, I know its long, but It's worth it. When I Hear Ani recite this poem I get Chills

Grand Canyon

i love my country
by which i mean
i am indebted joyfully
to all the people throughout its history
who have fought the government to make right
where so many cunning sons and daughters
our foremothers and forefathers
came singing through slaughter
came through hell and high water
so that we could stand here
and behold breathlessly the sight
how a raging river of tears
cut a grand canyon of light

yes, i've bin so many places
flown through vast empty spaces
with stewardesses whose hands
look much older than their faces
i've tossed so many napkins
into that big hole in the sky
bin at the bottom of the atlantic
seething in a two-ply
looking up through all that water
and the fishes swimming by
and i don't always feel lucky
but i'm smart enough to try
cuz humility has buoyancy
and above us only sky
so i lean in
breathe deeper that brutal burning smell
that surrounds the smoldering wreckage
that i've come to love so well
yes, color me stunned and dazzled
by all the red white and blue flashing lights
in the american intersection
where black crashed head on with white
comes a melody
comes a rhythm
a particular resonance
that is us and only us
comes a screaming ambulance
a hand that you can trust
laid steady on your chest
working for the better good
(which is good at its best)
and too, bearing witness
like a woman bears a child:
with all her might

born of the greatest pain
into a grand canyon of light

i mean, no song has gone unsung here
and this joint is strung crazy tight
and people bin raising up their voices
since it just ain't bin right
with all the righteous rage
and all the bitter spite
that will accompany us out
of this long night
that will grab us by the hand
when we are ready to take flight
seatback and traytable
in the upright and locked position
shocked to tears by each new vision
of all that my ancestors have done

like, say, the women who gave their lives
so that i could have one

people, we are standing at ground zero
of the feminist revolution
yeah, it was an inside job
stoic and sly
one we're supposed to forget
and downplay and deny
but i think the time is nothing
if not nigh
to let the truth out
coolest f-word ever deserves a fucking shout!
i mean
why can't all decent men and women
call themselves feminists?
out of respect
for those who fought for this
i mean, look around
we have this

yes
i love my country
by which i mean
i am indebted joyfully
to all the people throughout its history
who have fought the government to make right
where so many cunning sons and daughters
our foremothers and forefathers
came singing through slaughter
came through hell and high water
so that we could stand here
and behold breathlessly the sight
how a raging river of tears
is cutting a grand canyon of light


-Ani Difranco

You can find her recitation of these lyrics here : http://www.righteousbabe.com/ani/educated_guess/index.asp [its number 10]

I also have it saved if anyone wants me to send it to them.

Again sorry for swamping your Friends list, but this deserves it..

HAHA
I'ma fuckin Yanke!

HAHAHA

Roguey says we are harder to get ahold of then people in the witness protection program.

I just dont like phones.

LOL

thought it was funyn tho :):) hehe

lookit. New Icon.
That's MEEEEEE.. [yesh im topless]

I have nothing to say, just wanted to show off my topless icon.

*whee*


Chayse has been drawing pictures all day long, so I'm gonna go let him draw some more....while *Shaado is waiting..

David's mom finially clicked with our MPD, she asked us the other day who we were...tho we didnt know she had clicked so we played dumb..

*sigh* that woman scares me shittless sometimes...

And Family Guy mentioned Paul Harvey
*winx to Sandee*

Kinda Get the feeling we stepped on some toes. Well Cocaine atleast. Oh well.

Anyways. We went over to David's last night. Wanted to go out and do shitt, but that didnt happen, so *Shaado rented "The Cronicles of Riddick" [because Vin is soooo hot in those movies with those eyes] and bought 2 24 oz bottles of Smirnoff Black, and ended up going into her room. I watched most of the Movie with David, and stuff. Woke up next to him this morning too.
We wrestled last night and it was fun. He is really starting to understand that its not *Shaado and that even tho its the same body, its not the same minds.

We had fun this morning. Dicked around a while and then I went home.
But I gave him a kiss on his cheeck b.c i know he needs effection from the body.

He's workin hard to make it work, and I guess we are slowly starting to come around and let it work. He's learning the boundaries, so we can all be friends with out worrying about how he is going to act and stuffs

*nods*

Its slowly starting to work..maybe it will...

even tho I have to accept I'm not allowed to find anyone for me...... :-(

Blargh...


I'm tired as shitt..

We have our first Self-done Henna tattoo on the top of our left hand. Not too shabby for a first try.
I know we are going to become addicted tot his junk tho, and be all henna-ed up all the time. We were going to do our belly too, but I guess we forgot, maybe tomorrow since school is closed again, and all we have left of homework is some boring shitt due next monday and 2 more chapters in Shakespeares Stagecraft book for our quiz on Monday. Bleh. What a boring day we have planned tomorrow.

*Shaado is mopey because she hasnt seen David in 2 whole days *gasp*

But I'm excited. We found my old razor blade and used it to do some homework [its hard to explain, but just trust me on this one] then I added to the collection on my leg.

When *Shaado got mad at herself she made three gashes in her leg at Davids, and then when Coke pulled her shitt 3 more were made, and now that those have healed, I've added my own personal signiture to the power of three. plus our finger has broken skin from the homework we were doing.

*snickers and purrs and curls up to sleep*